1. |
parasocial
04:03
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[Verse 1]
I can’t see out my windows at night
The lights just fog up
For all I know, the argument outside is just my mind
We watch the silhouette circle our bed
You pull the covers over my head
[Pre-chorus]
Oh, I never thought I’d (thought I’d, thought I’d)
Become my own lover (lover, lover)
If I could I’d hold you
But I’d just cross my arms
At least you’ll stay with me and brace another day
[Chorus]
I’ll be my flower
I’ll be my flower
An illusion that I say to save myself
I’ll be my flower
I’ll be my flower
It’s a nuisance that I can’t get quite as high
At least I’ll stay with me and brace another day
[Verse 2]
I can’t rely that my past lover would like me
But despite this, I surrendered my serenity for the chance she might approve my improvements
But lately, I’ve just decided I should like me
[Pre-chorus]
Oh, I never thought I’d (thought I’d, thought I’d)
Become my own lover (lover, lover)
If I could I’d hold you
But I’d just cross my arms
At least you’ll stay with me and brace another day
[Chorus]
I’ll be my flower
I’ll be my flower
An illusion that I say to save myself
I’ll be my flower
I’ll be my flower
It’s a nuisance that I can’t get quite as high
At least I’ll stay with me and brace another day
[Bridge]
Perhaps it’s only changing of the name
Does it matter if the feeling’s still the same?
Obsessed with whatever fills the hole
Parasocial and obsessed with loving ghosts.
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2. |
STAND UP
03:27
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[Verse 1]
Yes I mind, you let them stride all over -
I can’t who’s on my side
I won’t say this
I won’t do that
It’s on my blood
It’s on my gut, if I had one
I’ve wondered why my alibi’s not adding up
When I cry that I don’t mind her moving on
I know that now it was never about her
I know it’s my ceiling that I fell through
[Chorus]
Taking my path and I’m taking over
It’s not an attack, not sorry
I won’t say this
I won’t do that
It’s on my blood
It’s on my gut, if I had one
[Post-Chorus]
I think I might be worth fighting for
Like, like, like, like maybe I could stand up
I think I might be worth fighting for
Like, like, like, like maybe I should stand -
[Verse 2]
Yes I care, you let me pair with shutting up
It’s not fair, now I resent the ones I love
I know that now that a ‘no’ is not fighting
I know it’s both of our backs that I’m knifing
I can only ever compromise
I’m giving all my timing, wasting all my time, losing all my -
I always thought that I didn’t deserve it
I always thought that they weren’t my moments
[Chorus]
Taking my path and I’m taking over
It’s not an attack, not sorry
I won’t say this
I won’t do that
It’s on my blood
It’s on my gut, if I had one
[Post-Chorus]
I think I might be worth fighting for
Like, like, like, like maybe I could stand up
I think I might be worth fighting for
Like, like, like, like maybe I should stand up
[Bridge]
Lie, and rely
I just hide from my pride
Always apologize like there’s red dot lights
[Chorus]
Taking my path and I’m taking over
It’s not an attack, not sorry
I won’t say this
I won’t do that
It’s on my blood
It’s on my gut, if I had one
[Post-Chorus]
I think I might be worth fighting for
Like, like, like, like maybe I could stand up
I think I might be worth fighting for
Like, like, like, like maybe I should stand up
[Outro Scene]
Oh, I forgot, it was the -
This 2 timer’s giving me anxiety, 2 seconds…
(camera beeps)
oh!
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3. |
the park
03:59
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[Verse 1]
You know the hardest pill to swallow was the state we ended on
All the times we really bonded, for months they had been gone
I waited till my grip would slip
I waited till my knees would give
I was never one to speak much
Well, listen to me now
[Chorus]
Even though I know you’re gone
I still wander in the park
I locked myself inside the garden
And I tell myself “It’s almost over”
(I can only think twice)
“It’s almost over”
(And I don’t know why)
Even though I know you’re gone
I still wander in the park
[Verse 2]
Broke up in December
Is it really May?
Exactly where I started
Dreaming of the same
I never could forget your voice
Even if I had a choice
Every night I have to relive the photos I deleted
[Chorus]
Even though I know you’re gone
I still wander in the park
I locked myself inside the garden
And I tell myself “It’s almost over”
(I can only think twice)
“It’s almost over”
(And I don’t know why)
Even though you’re really gone
I still wander in the park
Even though I know you’re gone
I still wander in the park
I locked myself inside the garden
And I tell myself “It’s almost over”
(I can only think twice)
“It’s almost over”
(And I don’t know why)
Even though I know you’re gone
I still wander in the park
(the park, the park)
[Bridge]
Used to want to go back, but I’m past that
If I could, I’d slow down. Now, I’m stuck in the mud
While you seem to be back on your feet
I try to make myself feel better on a beat
Tired of feeling I’m so unappealing
Looking in the mirror like my eyes might freeze me
Acting like it’d all change if you’d just see me
Mentality as if I’m still teething
If I waste more time, then I’m only older
And my eyes stay dry, but they’re drooping lower
Did I really have to swallow the key?
‘Cause to bring it up now, I might have to bleed
[Chorus]
I can only think twice
Even though I know you’re gone, I still wander in-
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4. |
CAN'T IMAGINE
02:57
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[Verse 1]
Sleeping on the train
In the Monday morning rain
Drifting in and out of dreams
I’m different when I’m down
I’ll go off alone in town
Only one to see me frown
[Chorus]
Can’t imagine I could live without a friend
And be alone somehow again
We’re to the end
Always have and always been
[Verse 2]
Surprised by the sight
Of the way I used to cry
Was so much darker at the time
I don’t recognize the fire
That was set alight inside
How could I not want my life?
[Chorus]
Can’t imagine I could live without a friend
And be alone somehow again
We’re to the end
Always have and always been
I can’t imagine I could spend some time away
From what I thought was a mistake
We stay the same
Only one I’d ever blame
[Verse 3]
At least I don’t miss me like I’m gone
‘Cause I know I’m never far
I’ll be my shelter in the dark
Thinking when I brush my teeth
It’s not so bad what I see
Staring back at me
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5. |
tunnel vision
03:45
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[Verse 1]
Running beside the train you ride
I’ll bear cuts and scars
But still clutch my arm
[Chorus]
I’ll throw away the world
If that’s what makes it work
Don’t you know it’s all I have and all I’ll ever know?
So please stay, please stay
[Post-Chorus]
How could I stand tall
With no one to break my fall?
And if my helmet breaks
Would I care to erase my pain?
[Verse 2]
Songs from our time changed their chime
Notes stay the same
Passions fade
[Chorus]
I’ll throw away the world
If that’s what makes it work
Don’t you know it’s all I have and all I’ll ever know?
So please stay, please stay
[Post-Chorus]
How could I stand tall
With no one to break my fall?
And if my helmet breaks
Would I care to erase my pain?
[Verse 3]
Still in my dreams, we didn’t leave
Was that your voice or my own ploy?
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